Duh.. i'm so sick of work.. i hate my job. i hate my job. i hate my job..!! When can i ever leave that boring and stressful department? arrghh.. it's tearing me apart from all the workload and OTs..

Lethargic.

I need a break again.
I wanna go tour again!

And it would be Bora Bora.

In my dreams. Cos it costs at least $10k to go there for a holiday!

Signs.

That's why it's in my dreams.


My Paradise.

























BUT, i'll definitely be there someday.

I'll strive for it. =)






And i'm missing him again.

Silly me.

Shagged. That's all i can describe for today. And i seriously dislike Mondays.


Anyway, back to yesterday. Attended a relative's wedding whom i've only seen for not more than 5 times in my entire life. Forced myself to crawl out of my cozy nest at 10am to go for the tea ceremony; since mum had already informed us that there'd be no lunch at home. Thus, i might as well follow my parents to my relative's house for a lunch buffet. Haha. Managed to squeeze some time in the late afternoon to do a thorough clean-up for my room. Haven't been doing so ever since new year's one. Just too busy. Hehe.

I always have a habit of cleaning up my room whenever i feel unhappy. And it really does help lighten my mood a little seeing my room spick and span. I'll just feel so satisfied and refreshed after doing the chores. I know it's a weird habit, but i'm still considering whether to make it a routine for my room fortnightly -that's provided if i have the time. =)






Me with my idiotic cousin. Ok lahs. I don't deny that he's quite good-looking. Lol.

Today's the farewell gathering treat from Boss for Jun Xiang who's leaving our department very soon. Ah xiang, touched or not? Haha.. Well, the food at the restaurant are quite good, at least it's worth the money. So here's a recommendation if anyone's planning to have a buffet feast with friends or family! =)

And i believe i can never find a Boss like my current one ever again. She's really way too nice to her staff, always taking care of us and giving us treats. I might have resigned long along if not for the sake of her. Will feel quite bad if i were to leave that department soon. Signs. Caught in a dilemma.

Anyway, accompanied Xiang to buy his NS handphone later on. Window-shopped for a while in PS. Actually i was quite tempted to buy a nice shade which suits me well; but ended up decided not to until my redang trip is finalised.

My gastic pain is relapsing again.. arghh.. tummy hurts so much now.. =(



















Duh.. should have eaten more. Seems that i didn't eat much.
But i'm on diet now! =(






My Buys for today.






And i didn't even know when i got this bruise. =(








I could feel the connection again when we met just now. Signs.
Why?

I don't know what's wrong with me today. I just couldn't focus on my work, and i kept staring blankly in the air. Even my colleauges laughed at my expressions when they tried to talk to me. Cos I need to take like 5 seconds to absorb what they've said and answered them. Signs. I'm definitely a real blur sontong today.

Probably just feeling shagged; physically and mentally.


Anyway, i'm feeling quite high now cos it's finally Friday! Yeah! Weekends have always been what i've looked foward to during Mondays; somehow it becomes a motivation for me to survive throughout the week. I reckon everybody feels the same as me too right. Haha.

Well, it's still quite a console that i'll have a busy schedule this weekend. Smiles.


Btw, Indiana Jones is finally up in theatres! Yeah! Jones has always been one of my favourite movie characters ever since i watched the Temple of Doom when i was still a child. Anyone wanna watch this movie with me? =)








我不后悔我曾爱过

只是不能爱到最后　

短暂的幸福　

拥有就足够

只要舍得　

就会快乐　

会快乐

Way back into love?

Definitely not so soon.

Have been giving it some thoughts;

Think it's better off that i'd be single-strived for the moment.

Yes, i've decided.

Till i regain confidence; and be myself again.





For No Reason - by Joanna Wong

put on your shoes
people used to tell me
now they think it's like a style.
of some kind or something
how do I explain that
I just don't believe in
all this purposely
for the world's perception of me
this is only rubbish put eloquently
like all the gothic poetry
kids are writing
from the highschool scene
Hey let's start running
for no reason
let's start laughing
without any jokes
when did we need excuses,
to do what we do
I won't explain myself.
won't you agree that sounds nice
that's right
we can go out
watch a movie
climb out my window in the middle of the night
and when the world's asleep, we shall dance like mad, amusement only.
won't you agree that sounds nice
so you mean you just don't like wearing shoes
I've got sweaty feet
I think I've made my point
if you truly like it then
it won't mean a thing
if it's a trend or if it's banned
by the fasion police
All the things I do I don't do them for you
I'm not down to earth,
not planning to be
it's all hypocrisy


And oh.. i've been addicted to Joanna Wong's album lately. She really does sing well! =)






I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on.

I know i'm not tall enough.
I know i'm not slim enough.
I know i'm not smart enough.
I know i'm not pretty enough.

Yes, i know; always knew.

But i always believe that having a kind heart is more important than anything else.

Yupp.

Nonetheless, i'm going to change myself for the better.

Yes, i know i can do it.

See the difference in me, in months' time. =)




And i finally realised what's causing me to be gaining weight.

(Adapted from CLEO Magazine)
1) Lack of sleep: When you don't get enough sleep, your body is under physiological stress. As a survival reflex, your body stores fat. Try to get at least 8 hours of sleep a night.

2) Your boss: Stress causes you to crave for carbs. - nodded vigorously. Why? It releases a calming brain chemical, serotonin. The next time deadlines are taking their toll on you, try breathing exercises instead.

In conclusion, i'll try to..
- change my sleeping habits; which is, to sleep before 12 am every night.
- avoid eating titbits during work; breathe deeply instead.

Another step nearer to my slim and fit body! =)





And i know we are just not fated for each other.

Goodbye, my love.

爱像一阵风

吹完它就走

这样的节奏

谁都无可奈何

没有你以后

我灵魂失控

黑云在降落

我被它拖着走

静静悄悄默默离开

陷入了危险边缘

我的世界已狂风暴雨

爱情来的太快就像龙卷风

离不开暴风圈来不及逃

我不能再想

我不能再想

我不我不我不能

爱情走的太快就像龙卷风

不能承受我已无处可躲

我不要再想

我不要再想

我不我不我不要再想你

爱情来的太快就像龙卷风

不知不觉

你已经离开我

不知不觉

我跟了这节奏

后知后觉

又过了一个秋

后知后觉

我该好好生活

Woke up at 1pm today, and this was because i didn't get much sleep last night. Went offline at 3am, but slept at probably 6am, i think. Signs. Just couldn't get to sleep.

Met bud for brunch at Tampines Mall. Shopped again as usual. I'm just going to start burning my this month's pay for GSS which is coming up very soon! Yeah! =) Bought 2 tank tops from Mango, and a Puma bag which i really like alot. Maybe you can call it 'love at first sight'. Lol.

Went to the temple in the evening. And then here i am back blogging again.

This is what i had for brunch. Lontong! It's been ages since i last ate this. And it still tastes so delicious.




` - 遇见你是最美丽的意外

但我等的人他在多远的未来

如果你不再出现

我的世界

还有什么可贵

可惜不够时间

让我们试验

什么叫永远

想念变成怀念

心动变成心碎

偏偏还会关切

你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰

我的心是个落叶的季节

我不知道如何度过今夜

所有的灯

早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现

我会不会

觉得快乐一些

可惜残忍时间

总要把诺言 一点点摧毁

MLXC finally had another gathering again; and it's a Farewell Gathering for our dear Jun Xiang who's going NS soon. Everything had gone smoothly according to my plans, and everyone seemed to have enjoyed themselves today, i suppose. Three cheers! =)

Had lunch at Yuki Yaki.







Pastime.









K-ing At Night.

Just Satisfaction. =)


Oh. Suddenly recalled that last year of tonight was the night that i met with a car accident with Aaron. Oh my. Time really flies. Still missed those times though. But definitely not that accident. It was quite a nightmare. =X

-- And my tagboard is finally up. Still need some comments on losing weight, peeps. Hehe.



It's been a week since we last contacted each other.
And I'm right here; still waiting. For you.

One of the songs my friend sang today. Find it quite meaningful.


爱爱爱爱了几回

也明白其中滋味

付出的从来不会等于收回

我却还在等待着

谁能出现


伤伤伤伤了几回

也曾经为爱憔悴

爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈

我却还是学不会

狠心对谁


男人男人

多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真

让我不必再心疼


女人女人

我答应做个好人

我答应用我一生

来换你的快乐一生


爱爱爱爱了几回

也明白其中滋味

付出的从来不会等于收回

我却还在等待着

谁能出现


伤伤伤伤了几回

也曾经为爱憔悴

爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈


我却还是学不会

狠心对谁


男人男人

多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真

让我不必再心疼


女人女人

我答应做个好人

我答应用我一生

来换你的快乐一生


男人男人

多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真

让我不必再心疼


女人女人

我答应做个好人


不会再让我（你）心疼

一等再等

你就是我等的那个人


男人男人

女人女人

多么希望你是对的人

Sing, Sang, Sung. That's how i spent my day today. Haven't been meeting up with bud for more than a month. Really missed her soo much. Lol. Went k-box this morning. Had breakfast at Mac's before we sang our throats out. And k-ing really helps me to relieve and forget my troubles. At least for that period of time.


我写了这首歌　
是一首简单的
不复杂也不难唱的那一种歌
这不是　那种　
只剩下那钢琴的歌
也不是　那种　
不能只是朋友的歌
这不是　那种　
两个人的故事写在一本小说　
那小说里有谁会在花田里犯的错
这就是　
一首写给你听的一个 Love Song　
一直想写一首 Love Song　
你给了我一首 Love Song
那DJ会播放　
这也许会上榜　
不过我只想写出一首 Love Song　
一直想写一首 Love Song　
你给了我一首 Love Song
你就像那夏天的凉风　
吹过我的面孔　
真想飞　
在我心底 　
你就是　
我第一名　
想说爱你

我写了这首歌　
是一首简单歌
不复杂也不难唱的那一种歌
这不是　那种　
童话里会遇见的歌
也不是　那种　
真真切切爱我的歌
这不是　那种　
两个人的故事写在一本小说　
那小说里有谁陪她看流星再降落
这就是　
一首写给你听的一个 Love Song　
一直想写一首 Love Song　
你给了我一首 Love Song
那DJ会播放　
这也许会上榜
不过我只想写出一首 Love Song　
一直想写一首 Love Song　
你给了我一首 Love Song
你就像那夏天的凉风　
吹过我的面孔
真想飞　
在我心底　
你就是　
我第一名　
想说爱你

如果你是一幅画　
你会是最珍贵的一幅画　
如果那画家是梵高的话
有何贵人前来有钱花　
个个向你求嫁　
梵高他说
你们都该回家
如果你是Melody　
就是最动听　
所有的人都会跟着一起唱
就算在夜晚　
你的星太亮　
让我忘了月亮代表我的　
Love Song Love Song　
你给了我一首 Love Song　
那DJ会播放
这也许会上榜
不过我只想写出一首 Love Song　
一直想写一首 Love Song　
你给了我一首
你就像那夏天的凉风
吹过我的面孔
真想飞　
在我心底　
你就是　
我第一名


The song you sent me.
Does it mean anything?

` My heart still skips a beat whenever i heard this song though.

Probably it's just misinterpretation.
I don't know. Can't understand.

Time goes by; so slowly.. too slowly.

Well well, these 3 days are the best days i ever had since i started my current job. It seems that the market is really quite bad nowadays, as there are basically not much unit trust trades per day. So, this will also mean that i was able to knock off at 6pm! Hooray! Hopefully there'll be more training to come. Hehe. =)

Just met my ex-colleague for dinner today. Had Ajisen ramen. Shopped as usual. Bought a dress that i loved so much and a nice top. Lalala~~

Arrgh. think i'm seriously putting on weight. And it's getting worse each day. Oh my. This won't do. I really need to think of some ways to get back my slim and fit body i used to have!

Here are some ideas i'm planning to execute without further ado: -
1) No rice/high-in-carbo food after 8.30pm
2) Sit-ups/push-ups/basic excerises for at least 15 mins each time, 3 times a week
3) 1/2 hr Hula-hooping each time, twice per week

Will these help me to lose some weight? Comments please.
Thanks!

P/S: It's high time i need to get a decent boyfriend. Haha. But definitely not desperate.



Irreplaceable; For no reason.
Deep inside i know, it begins to mend.

And you're the best mistake i've ever made.
-- However, i swear i won't repeat the same mistake ever again.

'Cause friends don't act like a couple.
I'm perhaps too insignificant to you; i know.



My favourite Crayfish Ramen and soft shell crab. Yummilicious! ^^

Always cherish your loved ones, 'cause you'll never know what will happen next.


This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on
I wish I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on
I wish I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on
I wish I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

I've been addicted to listening Class 95 fm (Love Songs - Deepest Secrets) session these days. Yaz definitely has a voice as smooth as a banana milkshake! Oh my, how i wish i have that kind of voice too.. Anyway, it made me realise how fortunate i am, as there are much more people out there who have been through the toughest; though my wounds never fail to relapse.

Shouldn't have started in the first place.
Yes, it shouldn't.

I can never forget those hugs from you;
The kisses that night;
The meals together;
The dates we had.

And those were the days; Our working days.

All i need is just time.

Perhaps, it'll end here;
Fate has definitely played a prank on us.


-- It's better to have been loved, then never to have loved before.

Is it really over?

I don't know.


我爱着谁

爱到我有点醉

告诉我你是谁

能够把我让我变不对

你不会累

但我却爱你爱得好累

从没有为了谁

不顾安危 付出一切

站在这平衡点

我还是觉得有点危险

或许是看不见

只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人

也不会是个好情人

你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过

好的男人有那么多 -- i don't really agree in this

少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞

也不会让你更难过

你听我说要好好学着去生活

就算未来有多少错

至少还有我的问候

我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说

你不要这么做

你不要看着我

说你已经知道怎么做

你很难受

我愿意陪你一起承受

只要你不怕痛

再多坎坷我都陪你走


I know that you may not be the right one for me.

Somehow, i can still feel a connection within us; just like you do.

And I think i'm beginning to miss you.

When will we meet again?



` Arrghh. The sight of the Myanmar victims and the Chinese really makes my heart sink. So many innocent lives have been taken away, and it's so especially for the school children who got buried alive due to the sudden 7.8 earthquake. Let's try to play our part and do as much as we can to save them peeps, it's just too devastating.

Click for more details.
http://www.redcross.org.sg/myanmar_cyclone_src.htm
http://www.redcross.org.sg/chinaearthquake_src_donate.htm

Money is not enough.. Always not enough.. Never been enough. Argh.. I really hate it when i need to get troubled over money. Since life is so short and we should live as happily as possible. But signs.. Here i am troubling over my finances again. And why is it so?
Scroll down for more details: -

Plans for my 2008
1) Braces ($4,000)
2) Redang Island (approx. $600)
3) Japan Trip (approx. $3,000)
4) Learn driving (approx. $1,500)
5) Partial school fees for my uni next year - hopefully (at least $5,000)

Oh my.. it seems utterly impossible even to think about it man! How can i ever save that much? Even if i save and scrub, it still looks quite unattainable.

Mum's allowance: $400
Insurance: $270
Transport: $80
Meals: $120
Bills: $100
Total fixed expenses per month: $970!

This will mean that i'll still need to save up at least $900 a month. But given my current pay, it's definitely a no no..!! Definitely not going to work. =(

Signs..

他恨下雨天

聊了一整夜

我隐约有一种

Hi peeps. It's really been donkey years since my last blog. Don't wish to reminisce the past. Therefore, due to 'high' demand from my dear friends, here i am creating a fresh new blog. Happy? Say yeah!! lol.

Anyway, yesterday was my department shifting day. We are shifting to OCBC main building finally!! After plenty months of planning and discussions. Well, the new office does have a magnificent view which i agree, but things are not as good as it seems. Life will be getting tough for us in future i suppose. I'd rather choose to live in "kampong" than "condominium" for god's sake if there's a choice! We want our Freedom back! Not only is there a long list of absurd house rules, it also means i can't be late for work anymore and formal wear is definitely a must! Examples of those rules are:
1) Staff pass must always be worn at all times.
2) Food is prohibited in the office.
3) Unnecessary stuff (such as stuff toys) are not allowed to put on the desk.
– No.. i'm not going to give a damn for this. i need my toys to work!
4) and many more.. =X

Rushed off unwillingly to Changi Safra Chalet together with colleagues during the late afternoon. And yes, it's unwillingly, cos nobody feels like going. No doubt that the place is far and inconvenient, the main reason was because we really don't feel like going. Ended up playing bowling there. And yes, you could have guessed it right. I'm the winner counting from the bottom. =(

Have been feeling quite troubled over some personal stuff lately. Met him just now. Waited him for 1 hour plus as usual. But what really pissed me off is when he told me he already had dinner and will only be accompanying me. I thought we were supposed to go for dinner together? Duh.. However, after some reflections, i feel that maybe i shouldn't have looked so pissed off in front of him. I should have anticipated that he'll be late again, as always. So, 2 mistakes made today.
Lessons learnt:
1) Never be prompt for any dates with him =S
2) Always read messages carefully.

Don't really know whether it's because my imaginations are running wild or things are just simple as that. Probably i've been thinking too much. Or my feelings might be right, just that he doesn't want to show? Argghh.. it's driving me crazy.. crazy.. Let's not think about it anymore. Leave it to fate then.

Signs..

My desk.. =)