The year is ending soon, and i'm on 2 days mc (second time of the year), due to my swollen eye. Was on a week's mc in August because of salivary gland infection, which made me look like pufferfish; with all the swelling and pain. I didn't even dare to look at the mirror during that period. A nightmare indeed. Haven't been on mc for the past 2 years plus, and yet i've claimed 7 days of mc within just 3 months. Probably my body is telling me that it's time to take a good mc break. Haha.

Have been so busy since school starts, that i don't even have time for myself. And the after-effect of not leading a normal life is that i'm starting to get emotional, more temperamental and agitated easily. I really don't know why i'm becoming like this, so for friends who feel offended out there, please pardon me. I'm really trying hard to control my emotions. At times, i'll just suddenly feel like crying for getting myself into this state, or i'll just get so angry with myself for the disappointing results that i've gotten. Life just sucks big time for me these days, that i can't even relax a little.

Our Hong Kong trip next saturday is the only source of motivation for me to continue with my busy schedule.; even if i know i'll get really broke after this trip. This will be the most expensive gift that i've ever given myself for birthday. Really hope it'll turn out well, as I really need a good break to forget all the troubles and stress for a time being.


I'm starting to feel lonely these days as well. Maybe it's part and parcel of life, to learn how to survive alone in this world, without friends and family staying by your side.

I used to hate being alone.
Now, i'm getting used to it more and more.

Struggling.



有个外国朋友这么对我说了， 让我身受感动：

“心念轉變，對事物的態度就會不同，心情愉快，運氣自然開。所以「心轉就是念轉，開心就是開運」就是這樣的道理。人人養成說好話、做好事，不僅能為自己創造好運磁場，更能增加福報。
因此一個好的信念、好的能量是很重要的。多接近能量好的人、好的磁場、能讓你開心喜樂的地方，才是現代人應該具備有的智慧與判斷。

心情調整好， 正面思考唷。 活在每天的方格中....盡量把當天事情處理好，別給自己壓力太大。
珍惜.....活在當下。

一起加油唷。”


或许，只有交个海外的朋友才能让我吐出心声，因为只有他才会时常关心我，问我最近过的怎样，原意毫无怨言的当个聆听者。