Parents out for honeymoon cruise trip to Redang (where i've been wanting to go badly) and brother out with gf to USS. I'm always left alone these days, can't help but feel emptiness beginning to fill me up once again, no matter how happy i try to be.

At my age, friends are mostly attached, planning to get married, or even married, starting a family.

I don't want to grow old all alone, like my senior colleagues.
They have no one to talk to when they feel troubled, and i really feel sorry for them.
It's just too much to handle all alone.
Scary.
But what if i'm destined to be single?
It'll probably be my fate, but i really don't want this to happen to me.

Someone said to me before, that i'm a nuisance and ask me to stop bothering.

And that someone also said to me before, that i'm not pretty; and i always know that.

I know my limits.

That's the reason why i've been keeping a distance to male friends, in terms of communication.
I always try to be as cautious as possible, afraid that i'll hear similar comments again.

I don't know whether it's due to the bad experience i had been through before, that it becomes hard for people to open up my heart and accept them.

I'm sorry if i always seem to be very courteous, and sound distant.

It's definitely unintentional.

Maybe it's time for me to open my heart to somebody, though i still have the phobia of getting hurt again.




你，
真的可以给我幸福吗？
不会让我再受伤害吗？
真的可以守护我吗？


爱情，
真的来了吗？





就让一切随缘吧。